Happy Birthday Superman…yesterday….what a long time ago we became who we are…and now another moment that has passed without some ground…I told you I missed you and that I wished to be there….you said that I was welcomed…forever if I dare…if you wish me, I will come….Happy Birthday…My friend...the greatest one.

The moon is darkened and is hiding somehow...I look around at the water that reflects nothing but the stars....I lay back and watch it come back from its game....and there all of the sudden are you....the big white ship....the devil is standing on the side watching me....he sends down a bottle to me within words preside...I open and read and there is quite a tale...but not only to me...the most intelligent of Eve get to glance at this treat...the words of the devil...I am the format...you are the rest....but as you find moments...what will fill in the rest?...

I lay here holding my teddy bear to my heart...squeezing out the anger of the day and the loneliness of the night...
oh Teddy I cry...why can't you be real?
I sleep a sound few...only to wake to the feelings of deep sadness within me that keeps me from slumber of a full night...teddy is there..in my arms...his soft skin rubbing on my cheek...
Oh Teddy I say....Why can't you be real?
I feel him nuzzle to me....aware of this I spy...there in my arms as large as man....lay my teddy bear as human as I...
Oh Teddy I whisper....why can't you be real?
with strong arms and soft lips....teddy took me in his hold...folding his softness completely around my cold.....tenderly he moves as the night becomes the day....

Oh Teddy I moan....Always be this real.....

Devil.....I lay in my slumber tosing and turning with your face in my mind...I see you with Eve...I see you smile...My eyes are closed as I remember who and what you are.I remember how you used to make me feel and then how you changed and I went along with your changes because your evil lured me…kept me…You say…” I love none” but you said…..I love you….you said, “It is their own fault for loving me” but you lead them to temptation ….that is what you do as the devil…if you were man…you would do the same….eyes closed still…words floating from my fingertips…let the fingers do the talking across the keyboard…they do…they are….this is what I dream…I grab hold of the pillow…hugging it to me…another….I cry….terrible sobs….I am alone again…..everyone has left me….I am empty…..no one wants to fill me….my dream is darker….anger and fear….fighting and death…I need you back…the softness of your voice….the tender caring of your heart to me….the desire for my mind….it is all gone….I cry out….”come to me” but nothing happens…in my dreams the devil is gone…there are too many dreams he must follow…I am just the last of his list…when he has time he will haunt me….I hold tighter…eyes closed….I am shivering in the cold of night and the heat of fire tempts me to be alert to pain in my heart…..I know where I will be soon….the arms around me making me feel love…but can I do that and still keep the devil where I need him? Can I still do that and have the time I desire…….My eyes are open now…looking at what I have written….devil…you make me crazy…I need you and I hate you…you love me not…I was not worthy of your special treatment….I was not worthy of what you tempted others with…that makes me feel sad….I was not worth it to you…to take the time….to make the effort…you use me…and I need you to…why is this sickness right? Do you remember me?...do you?

He answers…”yes….I remember teeth”…I answer….that was not me devil..You mistake me for too many others…

Nothing…….

The water that is between us now seems to keep the tide so high that I cannot see your smile. The second time around now that I have lost what I had...falling through my fingers. As one world moves forward, mine moves back...back in time, back in ways,looking back...not sure what happened....thought everything was great...I feel like I am just meant to be...destined to be the forever second time around.